Finding Answers

“To all your problems, you are the only solution. To all your questions, you are the only answer.” - Anonymous

It is interesting how life never seems to really stabilize. After everything that you were hoping will provide stability to your life has been achieved, after a while, you are left wondering – okay, what next? I have been truly amazed with my latest experience in this regard.

The last four years of my life have revolved around one single theme – getting married. It had seemed like THE most important decision in life, with no room for error. And rightly so (ONE of the most important, in any case.) Therefore, it was a stressful experience to search for 'a suitable boy.' In those years filled with enormous fears of never meeting the right person to spend my life with, it had seemed that if I get this right, the rest of my life will more or less fall into place. So, when I did meet the right person, I was elated. It was like having found the Ultimate Answer (and the Ultimate Question) in one single package.

Unfortunately, that ecstasy lasted only for a few months. Not because I was not enjoying married life (which I still find quite wonderful,) but because with this major milestone behind it, my brain soon started bombarding me with a million other questions.

'Okay, so you have started a happy married life. But, what next? What is the purpose of your life? What are you doing with your life? Aren't you wasting your time doing something else when you want to do something entirely different? Whatever happened to your dreams? When was the last time you wrote something? When exactly do you plan to do something meaningful with your life, a topic you have been talking about forever? How will you feel about this life you are leading when you turn eighty? And by the way, do you think you will live to celebrate your eightieth birthday given your current lifestyle?'

These, and many other such questions started bothering me a few months after I got married. To find some solace, I started reading up on these subjects, and realized that there are many, many people out there who have had similar questions about their lives. The only difference is, quite a few of them have been taking action, and as a result, finding answers. And I would really like to become one such person.

Fortunately, at this point, the setting in my life is ideal for a massive change. I have a clear choice, that has been handed over to me on a platter. I am moving to a new country, and will have three months of purely guilt free time to do whatever I want, because it will take me that long to get a work permit. What I do in those three months, can change my life. I have some ideas, which I will talk about in subsequent posts. But the point of this post is that right in front of me lies a concrete opportunity to change my life, and I have absolutely no excuses of not having enough time, not knowing what to do, or anything else for that matter. The only question for which I need to find the answer right now is, am I brave enough to boldly go where I have not gone before?